:'fessing up::

First, I skipped out on the gym this weekend. 
I was busy, and since I have to go when my husband can keep my son (the gym doesn't have childcare on the weekends), my time was limited to begin with.  Usually I can get a quick workout in on Saturdays, but it didn't happen.
Now, normally that wouldn't be such a big deal, but with a birthday party, church potluck, and a general lack of self-control, my calories were OFF the charts.  I tried tracking all weekend so that I could see my weakness up close, but even that went to the wayside.  It was a crappy weekend health and fitness wise. 
I thought about getting in a quick run this afternoon, but I got a sum total of about 2 hours of sleep last night (I have chronic insomnia), so I chose to rest (I don't nap well) with my husband this afternoon.  It was dreary and dismal outside.  I actually don't regret that....I miraculously dozed for a few minutes.  Hope that doesn't sabotage me tonight. 

So.  Excuses, excuses.  Understandably, I've gained a couple of pounds.

BUT---I am not going to sink into that dark place I sometimes go when I sacrifice self-control for the passing pleasure of "comfort" food (what a deceiving term!).  I'm determined to make this week a better one.  My menus are all planned out--healthy meals--and I've done my grocery shopping. 
I'm also going to try something new at the gym tomorrow!  A spinning class!  I won't lie--I'm nervous about it!  But, I finagled a friend into taking it with me, so we'll have fun even if we look like dorks.  :) 

In addition, I'm committing to pray more regularly about my issues with food.  Obviously it's still an issue, even though I've had some victory.  Food is only temporarily comforting, and to be honest, it's not comforting as much as it is medicating or numbing.  Comfort from the Lord, however, is transcendant.  How I wish I could believe that more faithfully!

I hope to update on the spinning class this week--if I can walk!  :-)  The class is MWF at 6 am.  I'm going to regret this!  ;-)